Friday, February 27, 2009

Good Days and Bad Days

The past few days have been difficult, sad days as we have heard more about my Grandmother's illness. My sister and I are dealing with self-recriminations over lack of constant contact with Granny and with a little anger of the fact that we are in California, she is in Arkansas; we have not been moneyed enough to buy tickets for our whole families to regularly visit her; and we are jealous of our cousins who ARE close enough to visit with her. After an intense conversation with my sister this morning and feeling sad because I had gotten to talk with my Grandmother but my sister hasn't, I was walking across the campus parking lot on my way to Algebra when I heard music coming from one of the vehicles. What was so neat about that?

Then I heard the words..."I've had some good days and I've had some hills to climb. I've had some weary days and some lonely nights. But when I look around and I think things all out, all of my good days outweigh the bad days. I won't complain" Immediately, I knew God had allowed me to hear that to help remind me that He is in control and that He loves me. I started crying and called my sister to share the moment with her.
I wanted to stand there in the middle of a parking lot, while tears streamed down my face, and just listen. I didn't have to though because I know the words of the chorus: "God is so good to me. So very good to me. More than this world could ever be. God is so good, I won't complain." This has been a song that has blessed me more times than I can count yet here I was complaining and focusing on the problems I faced.

I am truly blessed today. God is SO good to me. He loves my grandmother and knows what is happening in her life. I WILL trust Him to do what is best. He is aware of my sorrow and frustration. I trust Him to see me through these dark days. He knew what He was doing when He moved us to California so many years ago. I believe I am in His will.

Another song just started playing as I am typing this. It is in the player at the bottom of my blog. Darwin Hobbs is singing "Free." As I listen, I am encouraged. This song has been a HUGE blessing to me for the last month. One of these days, I WILL be free from my past, from the temptations of sin, from the sorrow that comes with the passing of a loved one. Free from the guilt that I heap on myself for not being "good enough", not calling often enough, not visiting like I wanted, for opportunities that I did not take and now are no longer available to me, for words quickly spoken, anger spent without thought, and choices I made that were detrimental to my soul and to the souls of others. Free, I want to be free to dance on streets of gold, at the feet of my savior, singing His praises for eternity. I can't wait to be FREE!

My grandmother will soon experience this freedom. I asked her to tell Jesus that I am trying my best to make Heaven. One day soon, she will be reunited with my Pawpaw and together they will be FREE to dance, FREE from pain, FREE from heartache, FREE from sin, FREE for ETERNITY!

So...I won't complain....

Saturday, February 21, 2009

Urgent Prayer Requests

Please pray for my grandmother, W. Frances Chance, who is currently in the hospital undergoing extensive tests for bone cancer. They have not come right out and said that is what she has but she is in SEVERE pain all throughout her body and there are multiple suspicious spots on her bones as indicated by the CAT scans. We will know more on Monday when her doctor comes in and reads the reports. In the mean time, please pray that the pain lessens and that her appetite returns.

She was a pastor's wife for over 50 years before God called my PawPaw home. She is a prayer warrior and wonderful speaker. It is her turn to covet the prayers of other prayer warriors.

This is not a great picture but it was the only one on my computer that you could see her
beautiful face.

Also pray for her sister and brother-in-law, Marie and Al Harrison, who are both in poor health due to cancer. She has colon cancer and he has brain cancer. Our family has really been hit by cancer. We just lost Sister Sharon Chance at Thanksgiving and have lost other family members to cancer as well.

My father-in-law, David McVay, is in very poor health due to Diabetes and Heart problems. He needs a miracle! Pray for my mother-in-law who is having surgery on the 24th for shoulder problems and needs to be able to care for my father-in-law.

Another request, Pastor Ron Lawrence in Sunnyvale, CA. told his congregation Wednesday night that he too has been diagnosed with cancer. My in-laws attend his church and he has been a close family friend for over 30 years.

I am not worried by these requests, just saddened that so many are suffering. I DO know a GREAT BIG God who loves His children and will meet them at their time of need.

Thank you in advance for your prayers.

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Back to Work

Tomorrow is the first day of work for me this semester. I am only SI'ing for one class this semester though. That should make it an easier semester!

I look forward to working with Micherri Wiggs again! This semester she is not teaching Public Speaking. Instead she is teaching Interpersonal Communication. I took that class and SI'd for it last semester with Ms. Joanie Gibbons-Anderson. She is an incredible instructor!! I would have loved to work with both ladies but my schedule does not permit me to do so. So, it will be interesting to see how Micherri approaches the curriculum after seeing Ms. G-A's approach.

Gonna be fun!!!

If I am not on here very often, I apologize in advance. I will do my best to post at least once a week.

God bless and keep you!!!!

Saturday, February 14, 2009

From My Heart To Yours

Friday, February 13, 2009

New background

Okay...wanna know what ya'll think of the background I created for this site. Please be honest but gentle...

Thank you...